And i leave before as long as i will.|
Let me hear you call my name.
More than words.
SITI NUR UMAIRAH.
Always at the limits in th midst of everything, 18.
No regrets of the shits in life that made me stand to where I am now.
ITE College East, floorballer, capoeirista.
Meeting you wasn't perfect at the start.
But the change that hits me whenever I'm with you matters.
My boyfriend, my bestfriend, my class buddy.
I love you, sweetheart.
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I care about my future.
Monday, February 17, 2014
At little update in what i'm doing right now.
Thought I would be free since I'm not schooling for not, but no.
I started working @ Quiksilver as a temporary full time
Schedule too packed, my work schedule wasn't fixed so my weekends is my weekdays as well.
Well, i have these tons of question on why did I chose to go to the school that i've got into.
For real, i won't be going to higher nitec, so, farewell ITE it's been a pleasure.
As you guys might know I am accepted to Lasalle College of the arts.
Yes, there goes all my friends would be like why? The fact that i have no art background.
I never took arts during secondary school, except basics sec 1/2 times.
With 4 artworks completed in 12 hours, 6 artworks done everyday after work till late night.
I myself didn't expect to be accepted with my two weeks old portfolio.
Needless to say, with the tough brainwrecking two fucking hours of interview,
I could just thank Allah for his blessings and made me into th school.
Little might know how much I'm into certain kind of arts.
It's just that I don't bloom out my interest and share it with my friends.
Self learning, random drawings, doodles in books, decorating diaries, all those small stuffs.
That's what i occasionally did during school or outside, the rest..........
It'll be a fresh start for my new school, start from zero, start from scratch.
I could just say that this is my life motto -
It doesn't matter, just keep on trying. How slow paced, how far behind you are, You're willing to try and strive hard to prove those teachers and people who used to look down on you the fact that yoou're academically weak in your general studies. You have strengthes & you have weaknesses. Just stand up, carry on and don't look back. Don't stop in things that you love doing, don't admire it but work on it because in the end it is you who'll be planning out your own future.
Saturday, November 23, 2013
I know I've abandoned my blog for a while, but whatever it is, i'm back for real.
Basically I'm a free lady now because I'm officially an unofficial graduate.
Graduation next year February 2014 :')
Time pass by so fast.
So now i had to decide my path, which I decide to leave.. ITE.
Maybe? I'm able to go to h. nitec but...........
Whatever it is, here's a video taken for my performance @ Marina Bay Sands
You're so much more to me than you think
Saturday, November 9, 2013
I appreciate every single things.
You did every thing to make me smile/ laugh.
You're so much more to me than you think.
So don't feel bad for yourself dear.
I'm the one who should be the one feeling all bad.
Because I don't share what I think through the nights.
I wish i could.
But i wouldn't want to.
The reason why is because you're not in my shoes.
I rather keep my own.
Even I can't handle my own emotional.
It kills me whenever i'm through my own mind, thinking.
As long as i'm happy with you whenever you're around me,
Everything is gonna be alright.
I'm trying to.
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Saturday, haji lane, exploring cute cafes.
Maison Ikkoku, is one cute cafe and has th awesomest atmosphere.
Chilled Music, nice lightings, relaxing, smores pies, vanilla latte.
Cute cupcakes awaits outside.
Pretty Darn Good Friday Night!
USS Halloween Night with my love, enjoyable queueing up in heavy downpour.
Shoes are soaked with rainwaters, pants are soaked as well, wet hairs, wet clothes.
Despite having a poncho that is goddamn 3 bucks, but emergency...well.
i luv u.
Saturday, October 12, 2013
Happy 13th Monthsary, belated tho.
I still love you.
Friday, October 11, 2013
Expectation of everything, perfectionist, things should go according as what i planned in mind.
Characteristic i've had, i've lived by, adapted by my parents, high expectations, oddly choose one.
No ideal for cancelled plans unless i'm too fucked up tired to ask again.
I'm fast in leaving if i find things is a waste of time, or go differently.
In doubts of leaving my little "interest"
Not sure if it's because i've loose interest or just hate the fact of the way of communication has been.
Yes, hate is a strong word, and yes i'm emotionally using that word.
How amazing fast their respond is.
How amazing that cliques are forming.
How amazing that we're getting closer like "Ohana"
Ohana, doesn't leave anyone else behind. No one.
It's like since away had begun, it starts falling, collapsing, theorically.
I won't know if you all would even understand the way i potray i've typed but i could only say this :
It's not a good thing i've potrayed.
I'm not sure if the current communication has been down the drain.
Sorry for this, i've grown in teaming up sports game so i've expected this w you all
Initiative, proactive, supportive, where is it?
I see none. It's always Manual, which is disgusting.
I had this choice of leaving.
I chose not to, even if i had to choose between floorball & my interest.
Polite. IVP, i've pushed my big chances.
Why? I chose my interest.
Even if i purposely play all shit and didn't turn up on the days for my floorball selections,
just because i wanted to continue and practice for my interest.
Needly to say, i feel like i'm losing my interest as well.
To think it over i could just persue my floorball,
since i was 9-12 and i started back last year 2012, 4 years of no floorball.
I've chose my 1 year little interest over my 6 years floorball.
But now, i want it back, i always want to be back for floorball.
But i chose not to because of this, how enthusiastic it had been last time.
With situations like how it is, i'm in doubts of leaving.
I shall just stick to one, as i always had no matter what it is.
I don't wish to waste anymore time and effort,
unless things would change i would consider to stay but for now,
Sunday, October 6, 2013
East Coast w my luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv.
Friday, October 4, 2013
Check out my lilttle mini videography!
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Lacking of updates.
Literally lack to the maximum levels.
But whatever it is, i'll be back soon, miss me when i'm gone :') jk.
Attachment ends in a months or so, fuck yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Fault In Our Stars.
Monday, September 23, 2013
Asides then being all shitty today, here's my today read.
The Fault In Our Stars - John Green.
Can I say how devoted am I towards this book, seriously.
It's funny, it's wonderful but mostly it's sad. I mean really, it's depressing.
The way they phrase all the words in one sentence with emotions.
I'm not sure if it's a really extremely good book or is it me that haven't been reading for years.
I mean the last time i completed a novel was when I was 15.
"Grief does not change you, Hazel. It reveals you."
Absolutely a good phrase to describe this novel.
Really shut my own world out to read this even if i had to babysit my nephew.
Near the end, i almost cried. Maybe i did but not much, my first actual grief for books.
Some of phrases/sentences are really powerful and deep.
"But I will say this: When the scientists of the future show up at my house with robot eyes and they tell me to try them on, I will tell the scientist to screw off, because I do not want to see a world without him " - Isaac.
Pretty sure that's the most heartbreaking sentence.
To say out to his dying bestfriend as an eulogy.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
IT'S BEEN TOO LONG, WHOA.
Pree hecked up with work right now till i've no time to even update my blog. Well asides then that, i'm left with 2 months of internship! Ahh, th freedom awaits me, lurking around the corner. *winks
Ok so basically, had really good Saturday with my silly love, to celebrate our belated 1 year Anniversary which fell last Wednesday but apparently interns have to block our way from meeting each other. So yeah, only solutions... Weekends. Would thank him for treating me lunch @ Sakura Shabu Shabu Charcoal Grill & Buffet which locates at Marina Country Club. Do you know how deep th place is?! And we missed our shuttle bus back to Seng Kang and the next bus will be in 2 hours time i mean what th hell.. So we cabbed.
Oh! He surprised me a Guess Charm Bracelet, i mean it's cute. Super to be exact, it's adorbs *.* Wore it on the spot th whole day, hehe because i love charm bracelets. Well he could surprise me and i don't when i gotten for him a shoe but i can't hide it because th reason are obvious enough that my bag can't fit a big paper bag. So i gave him th moment we met, bahaha.
So sad thing happened during that day actually...............my skirt..................there's black grease..... I mean do you know how it felt to use a brand new skirt and then a bloody hell grease appeared up on your skirt th worst thing it can't be removed easily so that moment i went fml. So yeah, luckily we're at vivo, and H&M saved my life somehow that i bought a dress which i had th wrong size and can't be exchange because i told th worker to cut away th tag.
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